For the sake of patient privacy and HIPPA, I will call all patients by another name. Barbara is the “new” chick this week and she just so happens to be a major brat. It is apparent she does not want to be here by the frequent outbursts and yelling profanities at the nurses. I’ve seen and heard a lot of patients go after the staff here, so this is nothing out of the ordinary. The only difference between Barbara and the previous patients I have seen here is she is determined to make everyone else more miserable than she is.
Barbara is addicted to amphetamines and drinking. It is hard to say, being so early in her recovery, but I’m afraid I have seen this type of addicted personality before, and I bet she will have another few trips to the center before she can officially kick her drinking and drug habits. If there is one thing I know for sure, patients who come in ready to fight everyone, blame everyone for their problems and refuse to cooperate either leave early, or end up returning in a year in worse shape than before.
It is possible that Barbara would otherwise be a charming person to be around. I have heard the nurses and therapists describe amphetamine withdrawal as agonizing and brutal. Furthermore, I have seen, first hand, some patients come in with the worst attitude and post-withdrawal symptoms, leave a completely different and happier person.
Dan is a super nice young guy; imagine the mellow guy you went to high-school with that smoked a lot of marijuana but was always willing to share with anyone. Dan has been here at “Child Wise” for about two weeks now, and from what I know, he never touched ‘hard’ drugs until he started dating a girl who introduced him to all of the hardcore stuff. Now that this chick is out of his life, I am confident he will go back to living a nice and quite hippie life—and whatever that entails.
About a week ago I was sitting with Dan, as we set up for the daily yoga, and we spoke in length about our past relationships and upbringings. I was very surprised to learn that Dan comes from a very religious home with two doctors for parents. I could easily tell that Dan loved his family and felt bad for the pain he has put them through, I also told him (being a firsthand witness) a lot of patients come through here, and the first breakthrough feeling is that of guilt for what the patient has put their family through.
Fortunately for Dan, he does not seem to be itching to get out of here and score, as many do regrettably. Another factor that seems to be on Dan’s side is that fact that he abused party drugs such as LSD, molly, ecstasy and the like—but only on occasion, rather than using drugs such as heroin and meth regularly.
Molly, yes I chose to name this patient’s alias as “Molly” for the exact reason you might assume. Molly abused molly for years during and after college; a lovely girl, also very attractive. Molly is friendly to all of the staff and makes a point to be positive and wants everyone to join in on her law of attraction techniques. From what I know about Molly, the drug, I am a bit taken aback at how this patient manages to stay positive; understanding how the chemicals in molly effect the brain after long-term abuse.
Albeit a personality trait, I’m thrilled to see someone be so positive in a place where it can be so easy to get caught up in depression, anger, and frustration. There are days when I come in, and I feel pulled down by constant complaining and negativity. Most days I can cope and differentiate between what is their problem and what I am allowing to be mine.